acceptance...

back on the menu! perhaps for the entirety of this life?...

what does it mean to really accept someone regardless of the choices they make or beyond the common value pack of age, race and gender?

to start, i must remove the word "really" = acceptance is acceptance, there is no "really".

trust is trust.
forgive is to forgive &
love is love.

there are no varying degrees "really", are there?

if my word is my word, why would i tell another "trust me"?
if i truly have forgiven, then there is no space to maintain resentment or be triggered over a person or situation.

it's easy to accept someone until they take an action we perceive to (a) be against us or simply (b) not within the realm we agree to live in.

how interesting that K, someone i've always experienced a deep, incredible love & admiration for all my life, is the one who has pushed my perceptions, overwhelmed my boundaries, destroyed my comforts and... from a child's broken heart to a jaded parent's point of view (in basic language), someone who has "let me down". (i use this term loosely, as it's mainly my expectations that walk me down into that pit of quicksand).

of course!! who else would i have stuck around for in such times, when i've often taken it all personally enough to question "how can he make such actions against me?!!"

and he, who's life would be ultimately affected, is most placid in the face of it all! he who has the two beautiful children, is the one who knocks the doors down, slices & perforates the fabric and shields himself in a puncture-proof vest.

where was i filing my complaint again?
who was i filing it against?